Teen In The Seduction Scene

I will always remember today as a turning point in my PUA development.

"OMG, TELL US WHY!"

Well this is how jackass writers get you to read everything. They tell you there's desert but before you get it you have to eat the broccoli!

What can I say, I'm a bitch :).

Let's eat this shit fast so we can get to the good stuff, ask for the bill, and go home to jerk off.

So today started... slow?

Like yesterday I woke up not feeling my prime. If I were to rate my attitude on a Transformers scale, I'd want to be a Megatron but was a Bumblebee.

Just to let you know, my jokes make T-Diddles hot, and since he's the only feedback I'm getting this is what you have to deal with. It's called commenting bitches!

Anyway, so I ate, covered my nakedness (Ya I eat naked, you have a problem?) and set out on my Quest for a chick with nice Breasts. Since adventuring is easier when your jacked up on canned crack, I decided to make a purchase of an energy drank. I heard "Jolt" was good so I made my purchase and ventured onwards.

When I get there T-Diddles decided to be late so I had to wait. I decided to start dranking my drink. I opened this massive can of crack only to have it spray all over me :(.

T-Diddles came soon after pumped to get his grove on. I decided not clean up my crack drank and instead left it for an old man to slip on.

Of course as always we didn't start our grooving right away, we had much more important shit to do.... literally I had to shit bad... crack does not sit well in ma belly.

We go to the washroom, clean up and go out again.

I had mentioned to T-Diddles earlier I was interested in on of Apples various touch products, specifically the iTouch. Although I didn't have the money, T-Diddles wanted to go look at them. We caused havoc at the store for a while. Messed with the iTouches and i'llPhones You.

When we were pretty sure the employees were disappointed with us we decided to bounce to a new venue. Specifically the Wireless Wave so T-Diddles could mess with more iPhones then see how long it took the employees to fix them.

Once I convinced he was wasting time we decided it was serious business time. At least it would have been if my can of crack wasn't making me feel sick. We decided to get food, THEN we could start.... haha, were soo full of shit. :P

We go for food that will make us sick cheap. I have the same taste in food as I do for hookers....

Yummmm yummm, all done. We head back to the mall. On the way T-Diddles randomly tells me to pretend he's a girl and to approach him. I was confused until I figured out he wanted me to practice opening with him. We formulated an Opener so spectacular, that it makes even men give us their number.

Only thing left to do is to use it!

But before that we decided to return our Wireless Headphones. T-Diddles also decided he needed to point out to the store clerk my limited knowledge when it comes to the topic of hot girls.

ALRIGHT, NOW WE HAVE TO APPROACH!!!! Like I've heard of procrastination... but this is a whole to level of it.

So we are in the mall, walking round. T-Diddles says he's got a cramp so I stop and sit with him. I do this grounding exercise I learned from our buddy the hypnotist.... it sorta worked. Maybe just be placebo though.

But the AA is still there. It's always gonna come up when trying something new though.

The other day though I read about something called a pattern interrupt. Basically, when you are getting AA, you have a pattern of seeing a set, and thinking about how stupid it would be to talk to them. What you need to do is break the pattern. The recommended way to do this is by acting like a monkey. It sounded like a fake technique I would put in a book of my own for shits and giggles but I decided to try it. T-Diddles and I agreed we'd do it... just not near the mall.

We head out. Once were a few blocks away I decide it's a good spot to pretend were monkeys. T-Diddles all of a sudden doesn't want to though. Whatever, I don't need him.

I ran down the street acting like a monkey, then through Dundast Square acting like a monkey, then through a crowd acting like a monkey. People were pointing and T-Diddles was telling them I was retarded, but whatever.

After that I felt pretty good, tired, but pretty good.

We started walking through the mall again. We decided I should go first because I did less the day before. T-Diddles points out ugly people I don't really want to talk to. He says it's practice but I insisted that's not the kind of practice you use a direct opener on.

Let me just say what direct is all about.

Direct: Being spontaneous, being HONEST, being sincere (something that's hard to fake).

I could go up to some chicks I didn't like, it wouldn't be honest or sincere... it would just be me saying a line. I could say the line to him and it would almost be the same amount of practice.

So I just kept telling him no and let him whine about how I shouldn't care and just do it.

Then I saw a 2 set, a brunette and a blonde. They were heading towards the elevator. I told T-Diddles I was going for it and started my "Speed Walk". It's a speed walk, not a run. I do it whenever I don't intend to approach or am REALLY unsure.

By the time I got there they were down the elevator and walking away. T-Diddles saying "Go! Before they walk into a store!". So I continue my speed walk, the whole time thinking whether or not to go.

Then it hit me "FUCK IT!"!

I switched to a run and tapped them on the shoulder, he's what happened.

6Teen: Hey, I have to go quick, but your cute I had to say hi.

I put in pauses, said it slow. The first part they had a straight face, but when cute came they lit up and started giggling. There was HB(Blonde) and HB(Brown).

HB(Blonde) and HB (Brown): Hahaha, Thanks!

6Teen: I know, that's pretty random right?

HB(Blonde): No! Not at all!

HB(Brown): What's your name?

6Teen: My names _____, what's yours?

HB(Brown): I'm X

*Shake hand*

6Teen: Nice to meet you X, and yours?

HB(Blonde): Mines Y.

6Teen: Nice to meet you Y. So what have you guys been doing today?

HB(Brown): Not much, just shopping.

6Teen: Nice, which stores?

HB(Brown): Aritzia (I dunno if that's how you spell it :S)

6Teen: Omg, cool! Whenever I'm in there everyone's soo.... (I wanted to say hot, cause at least 2 times a day I'll be chasing down a girl and she'll head into Aritzia... but I saved myself) rich!

HB(Brown): Hahaha, well you know, were just spending our extra pay check money.

6Teen: Paycheck? Where do you work?

HB(Brown): Oh, were from Hamilton.

6Teen: And you came all this way just to shop? :O How far is Hamilton exactly.

HB(Brown): Like 1 hour or so.

6Teen: Cool, you never told me what your job was.

HB(Brown): Oh, we organize events.

6Teen: OOOooo lala! Events! What kind of EVENTS are we speaking of?

HB(Brown): Hahaha, Weddings

6Teen: :O You plan wedding?!? OMG! That's sick. Do you ever get to go to any?

HB(Brown): Hahaha, yaaaa :)

(I know it seems all like HB Brown... I can't remember word for word and who said what. I was just talking shit. After she said that I was amazed to hear myself say...)

6Teen: Omg, you guys are sooo cool! Here, I have to go. Write your contact info? You have facebook or something?

HB(Brown): Oh ya, here :).

*Writes her name*

HB(Blonde): Write down mine too! :)

6Teen: Cool, I'll add you guys! Have a nice day!

I think this calls for a:

DAMN GURRRRLLLLL!!!!!!!

My first close!!!! :D

Before I go onto later events I'll just say what was wrong with this.

1. Too short, should have talked more with them.

2. Not enough sharing. I should have given more "Non-Question" answers. For example, talking about the things she said, anything instead of asking about it.

3. Should have made her Qualify. I sort of did with "Aritzia? That's expensive" and them saying "Well we have our paycheck to spend".... not enough though.

4. Kept talking after the close. I just got it and got out. I should have stayed and made the info be like a side thing to talking to them.

5. Talk more to HB(Blonde). I know she talked more then I said, but I should have asked her things. I gave too much attention to HB(Brown), probably cause she was the target. MISTAKE!

That's all I can think, but tell me more if you see them.

So after that I go see T-Diddles. He's freaked out! He can't believe I did it! I'm just SUPER excited!

We walk around as I try to calm myself down. T-Diddles is still amazed. But it's over, time to move on. So I say "Alright, sick, okay, your turn now". But this guy wants more magic from me. He won't go unless I do ONE more. T-Diddles says "I will, I will go. I just want to know that it wasn't a fluke, it was your pure skill".

I was too excited after that, I didn't fee like another. But he insisted and pointed out yesterday he had done more, I had to even it out.

Alright, fine, whatever!

So he points out a girl walking alone (I would say this was a bad idea. I don't like getting told who to go Direct on, I like choosing and doing it myself.).

Whatever I approach, do the opener.

She smiles but kinda keeps moving. I walk with her and ask if it's random. She says it is. I ask what she's doing and she says she's going to a soccer game with her parents and BOYFRIEND. For some reason (I feel like an idiot now for saying this) I go "Ohhh, that sounds boring". She didn't really say anything so I ejected and let her go.

Mistakes with this one.

1. Didn't stop her. I kind of kept walking with her. I should have stopped, planted and kept talking no matter what.

2. My body language or tonality was a bit off probably. I should make sure I get that down.

3. I told her the soccer game was boring.... WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING THAT MAKES THAT SEEM BORING!?!?! Fighting bears?!?! I should have asked something OR even better ASSUMED, by saying something like "Do you play soccer" OR "OMG! Your a soccer player?".

Whatever though, she had a Boyfriend, I'm not going to get into his business.

So I went back and talked to T-Diddles. I say "Alright, whatever, your turn". But the little bitch isn't satisfied!

He says "No! Your doing another! I'm not going till you close another girl!". In my head I'm thinking "Dude... I've only done it once. I can't just pull that shit out of my ass. It's getting late, you haven't done shit! I've done 2 and acted like a fucking monkey!".

I tried explaining this but he was unmovable. He seemed really pissed off too. He said shit like "I don't want to do this anymore, I'm quitting PU". I was stunned. "Excuse me?! Just do it! I'll go again after you". T-Diddles said he was going home if I wasn't going again. So I said "Fine, I need to go buy pants, I'll go do that now.".

He told me he would come buy the pants, then after I had to do another. Ugh!

We went shopping and I got my shit. By the time we were done though I had to do, and so did he. T-Diddles was just complaining about how big a waste of a day it was. Called me a baby for not doing it. Hahaha, hypocrite :).

Anyway, that's the end of the fun story.

I'd just like to mention now some stuff I've notice since starting this though. It's stuff me and T-Diddles have both noticed.

Personality Shift!

Ever since starting this we are becoming different people. T-Diddles got told at work by some girl that he'd changed. "A 360 degree change, happy at work now, happy and cooler in general". He used to not like Subways and stores because he thought everyone was looking at him. Now he just doesn't give a shit and whistles to his music on the subway.

Same here!

I had to go shopping today. I remember I would look for pants that looked nice, my size, I'd buy them and leave. Actually I had to have my sister come and find them. I felt stupid looking at clothes. I thought people were looking and judging me based on what I was checking out. I refused to use the change room too.

Today, no problem. I had fun shopping :).

Fears!

I've noticed old fears leaving and new ones coming. I'm not as afraid of people any more. I used to not want to look or have any thing to do with strangers. People trying to hand stuff out or selling were like seeing a gang of gangsters walking my way. I'd almost go to the other side of the street to avoid them!

Now it's different. I joke with the Sick Kids guys when they ask for money.

I used to HATE forums. I was scared shitless to post because if people didn't like what I wrote in anyway it hurt. I'd get notified of a reply and my heart would beat faster.

Now I don't give a shit. I went on this guys forum and posted a long thing of stuff I didn't like that he was doing. Everyone on the site loves this guy and I knew people wouldn't like everything I wrote.

I DON'T CARE THOUGH!

But as I said, old ones go, new ones come.

I'm not afraid to approach, today I got a number though. Now I'm wondering if they'll message me back, will they think I'm too young (I'm 16... their 20 something :S), will they not accept my friend request, will they write something awkward to me??!!?! What's going to go wrong.

Hahaha, the one added me, I worried about them maybe not for nothing!

Really I shouldn't care though. Who cares. I don't know them, I talked to them, they liked me, if they change that cause of something on facebook they aren't cool people.

Oh well.

I keep on trecking.

Peace Out! :D

The Big Day!

Yesterday we got a taste for the Direct approach, Today we ate it for dinner! :D

When I woke up I wasn't really feeling in the mood to do this stuff. It was really early (for me :P) but whatever. I did all my shit, eating and getting ready. By the time I was done though I only had 20 minutes to get out there :S. No time to get energy drinks or even to walk.

I ended up just taking the streetcar and accidently got off a stop early just as I hear the clock clang 12:00. Whatever, I get there when I get there.

I'm late, whatever, me and the Diddles talk specifics. Lucky guy had a beastly energy drink and I didn't :(. FUCK!. Whatever. At 12:15 we book and go different ways. The rules are...

- We each have 2 hours.
- For it to count you need to transition the conversation.
- Opening Direct and Transitioning gets you 1 point.
- Getting a Phone Number gets you 5 points.
- If we see each other we can't say how many we've done.
- Meet back at the start point after the 2 hours.
- You lose 1 point for every 5 minutes your late.
- The one with less points pays the other 20$.

Ding Ding Ding, I'm off.

I run up stairs, see two girls sitting down. I start thinking "Next one, their too young" too which I reply "Go fuck yourself!". I go open, exchange name with them, ask how their days going, cool, I don't care, see ya later!

YAY! Energy boost, 1 down in like 5 seconds. I go to the 3rd floor... not many people, TILL I SEE T-DIDDLES WALKING TOWARDS ME!

He starts asking how many I've done but I won't tell him. He keeps asking though so I finally tell him 1. He freaks out cause he hasn't done any! Woot, I'm winning, nothing to it. :)

I get through the third floor, go down 2 floors to the 1st. I see 2 girls walking towards the food court. The inner dialogue starts up: "Your winning, their passing, keep moving". Good thing I was on top of it "Hahaa, I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!".

I prance over, spin them my way and open them up.

Woot, 2 done, I'm da man!

Now I want to mention something important. At the start of summer I bought 2 packs of 5 Gum, Rain. For some reason I think chewing gum makes me look bad-ass or something, so whenever we hang out, right when we start, I chew a stick of it.

THIS IS IMPORTANT!

At this point I realized I wasn't chewing my gum, so I pulled it out and got moving. I notice a set and the inner dialogues still there "Don't do it, it's not a great one, the next one will be better". So I walk on the 1st floor and don't approach. Then I notice the T-Diddles again, he grabs me again and demands to know how many I've gotten. I don't tell him at first, but give in again. I've done 2, he's done 1. Wow, I ignored some sets but I'm still winning. Let's keep it up.

Keep walking, but all the sets I see make me think "I don't want to, not this one, the next one, I dunno she looks old, are those her parents?"... stuff like that.

I walked around for 45 minutes or so and decided to throw out my gum.

After that I felt a bit better. I was thinking I could do some more.

Then I saw T-Diddles. He runs up to me and says "OMG! I've done soo many! I'm not even joking! How many have you done?!". I'm freaked out cause I've only done 2 but I've got a bit of hope cause he's a liar. So I asked how many and he says "15!!!!!". I just think "FUCK!!!!!!!!!!"

I tried booking it but he grabs me and is desperate to know how many I've done. After I tell him he's soo disappointed. I decide at this point I'm not gonna beat him and admit to defeat. After that I had to deal with getting told how easy it was.

I decided I needed to get more then 2. The energy drink worked for him so I went for one too. I bought one and we walked around the block while the mall refreshed (I didn't want to approach the same people as him).

Haha, random side-note. We went to Dundast Square and saw one of Kenny's (From Kenny vs Spenny) camera men.

Anyway. After walking and talking the shit we head back in. I was definitely feeling a lot better after the drink and the walk. We ran around the mall and did some more sets.

One of the things I tried was a way of opening a moving set. T-Diddles had been just stopping them while they walked by. I wanted to try another way I had heard. I walked by the set, they saw me. After they passed, I turned round and ran back, tapped them on the shoulder and used the direct opener.

They were super happy! :P

Something about it. I think they were proud they stopped me in my tracks.

The final number of approaches was about 20 for T-Diddles and 7 for 6Teen. After that we called it a day cause T-Diddles had to go to work.

And we all lived happily ever after, knowing the next day we would be able to rock it even better.

Now for everyone thinking "Why the fuck did he tell me to remember the gum?!?!". I think I may know why I had trouble approaching. For anyone who has studied NLP you know you can anchor certain emotions. You can do this by pinching yourself, touching your arm, or in my case CHEWING THE SAME GUM, whatever you want whenever you are experiencing the feeling very strongly.

Ever since we've started, as soon as we head out I start chewing this gum. And whenever we go out I have those strong, nervous, scared feelings. I think that by chewing the gum, I anchored my AA. :S

So looks like I'll have to hold off the gum for a while and only chew it when I feel really good.

A good day though none the less!!!! :D

I just want to point out there are lots of programs for getting rid of AA. Their 21 day things where you go out and ask for the time everyday... this gets you past your AA 21 days later.

This is Report #18. After going out 18 days I've almost completely rid myself of AA, and gotten to the level where I can use one of the most ballsiest openers! Damn Gurrrrllll I'm looking FINE!!!!

:D

I've noticed the confidence boost. This is a bad example but I'll say it.

I'm a hater of forums. I don't think i get anything out of them and whenever I post I'm worried about how people will respond. My heart beats faster when I get a reply because I'm afraid it will be some jackass making fun of what I said.

Today I had to post in this forum though. I needed to vent some hating for a site on their own forum :P. When I got a response I figured it was probably going to be someone mad at me... but I didn't care! :D

Wow, 18 days and my forum phobia is gone! Yay!

BTW, Totally worth it ;).

Now I start entering what I would consider my area of expertise. Just plain shooting the shit with girls! T-Diddles may be able to open like a beast, but I have a feeling conversing might be an area I can rock at. But we'll see!

Cover yourself girls!

I'm cuming for ya ;).

PEACE OUT!

One of the things PUA1 recommended me to do was write down things I can do at the end of my blog posts (aka "Field Reports") to improve. So here's my piece on how I think of myself, my beliefs and where I'm at.

Where I'm At:

Right now I have a dying urge to go do this stuff as much as I can. When I'm at home all my problems seem to work out. I'm not fearing having to go out. I'm excited and I believe when I go out I'll get great results. I know if I go out and approach as many girls as possible it will just blast my progress.

When I get to the mall it's a different story. My fears come back.

- What if she ignores me?
- Will she think I'm weird?
- Is doing this weird?
- Does she not want to be talked to?
- What if I'm talking and there's a silence and it gets awkward?
- If it sucks she'll go and tell her friends about this creepy loser she just met.

Haha, that's all my fears. Maybe I'll get more if she has a bitchy vibe when I see her but this is the main list.

Personally I think I'm very good with girls. I really do think I'm a cool guy, I really do think I'm funny. My biggest problem is breaking the silence and going and talking to them. I think if I could get past these fears, and be able to approach confidently, knowing they are going to react positively no matter what, I'd be light years closer to being REALLY good at this stuff.

Maybe that's cocky or something, but it's what I really believe. So right now I'm going to try and break down these fears with a sledge hammer or reason.

Step 1: Looking at both sides

- What if she ignores me?
What if she stops dead in her tracks and gives me all her attention?

- Will she think I'm weird?
Might she think I'm the ballsiest, most confident guy she's ever met?

- Is doing this weird?
Is being attracted to girls, wanting to meet them, and having a desire to be with them weird?

- Does she not want to be talked to?
Have I ever met a super hot girl who is super shy and doesn't like talking to people? Or are they all super social, chatty and popular?

- What if I'm talking and there's a silence and it gets awkward?
How long does it take to hook? A minute or less? Can I not talk about shit for 1 minute? Doesn't she want to be as comfortable about it as me? Won't she work just as hard to not get the silence as I will?

- If it sucks she'll go and tell her friends about this creepy loser she just met.
Does she know anything about me? Do I have to talk to someone for them to think I'm a creepy loser? Can I just as easily be a loser by walking around, avoiding social interactions my whole life, sitting home alone, not getting invited out, jerking off because I can't get action? Isn't it the only way not to be a loser talking to them?

Step 2: Answer My Questions

- What if she ignores me?
What if she stops dead in her tracks and gives me all her attention?
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It's true, she's just as likely to really want to talk to me as she is to really not want to.

If she stops and is really eager to talk to me, on a scale of 1-10 how good is that going to make me feel? I'd say an 8 :).

If she walks by without a word, on a scale from 1-10 how much is that going to hurt? I'd say a 1... maybe.

So really, I can't really fear her ignoring me. If she does it doesn't really hurt, who cares. If she stops though and likes talking to me it's going to boost my confidence SOO much. Really I can only gain confidence by talking to people. And the one's that ignore me? Who gives a shit, the more it happens the less I'll care anyway.

- Will she think I'm weird?
Might she think I'm the ballsiest, most confident guy she's ever met?
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I've decided to send my game in a very "Direct" sort of direction. So let's go over this "weird" situation pretending I'm in the girls situation.

I'm walking around, bored, hanging out with my friend which I do every week. Were talking about the same lame, boring stuff. Ugh!

Then all of a sudden a really hot girl starts walking straight towards me, tells me to stop. Looks me dead in the eyes and says "Omg, I know this is very forward... but you are the cutest guy I've seen all day!".

How fucking good would that make me feel? Forget she's hot, she's a mediocre looking girl, but she comes up and tells me I'm the cutest guy she's seen all day. What am I going to start thinking?

"Ewwww, what a weird ugly girl. Why would you say that? Go away, your creepy and weird!"

It's so hard to even type that it's soo fucking STUPID! I'd be flattered as fuck! I don't care if she's ugly, I'd light up and be happy. I'd talk to her if she wanted to chat.

The truth is I don't think I'm a "mediocre" looking guy even. I think I'm attractive to girls. I've been told by a lot of girls that i'm cute and such. A girl wouldn't be concerned by how I look though, she'd be thinking "What a ballsy guy to come and say that to me".

The idea that I will get "That's weird" as a reaction is so unlikely it sickens me to think this is (or was) a fear of mine.

- Is doing this weird?
Is being attracted to girls, wanting to meet them, and having a desire to be with them weird?
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I think the opposite question tells all. I can answer with 100% certainty that the answer to that is no!

- Does she not want to be talked to?
Have I ever met a super hot girl who is super shy and doesn't like talking to people? Or are they all super social, chatty and popular?
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I'm trying to think of the last time I was walking down the street thinking "IF A GIRL TALKS TO ME I'M GOING TO BE SO FUCKING PISSED!". I'd LOVE a girl to just come up and chat with me. Why wouldn't girls not be the same?

Maybe guys less so, but even so, if it was a cool guy I'D BE PSYCHED!

I'm a cool guy, guys will be pumped to talk to me.... I'm a guy so girls should be pumped to talk to me by default :).

- What if I'm talking and there's a silence and it gets awkward?
How long does it take to hook? A minute or less? Can I not talk about shit for 1 minute? Doesn't she want to be as comfortable about it as me? Won't she work just as hard to not get the silence as I will?
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Then I'll try my hardest to keep it going. I'll find something about their clothes, something they said, something in the environment, ANYTHING. Really though there shouldn't be any silence. I should get my conversation skills to a point where this doesn't happen.

What am I talking to, getting them there though... they are there!

Can I not actually keep a conversation going with anyone? My mom, my friends, anyone? Of course I can! So fuck this thought that "Oh I can't keep a conversation".

I just met her... the things I can talk about are endless. I can banter with her, ask her what she thought of me talking to her. If I get going I should be able to keep it going. I know this isn't that hard and shouldn't be a concern. I just have to ask things I care about and that interest me and then listen to how she responds.

I'm realizing how writing how dumb this is, I'm gonna just take down ideas of things I can randomly talk about.

- Do you get approached often? I can add in "By nice young men?".
- If she's not giving good answers. "Why are you so shy?" "Why don't you have an oppinion?" "You need to try harder then this if your to keep me entertained, what's the craziest thing you've ever done?". The list goes on, I thought of those in 10 secs.

THIS IS NOT A VALID FEAR!

- If it sucks she'll go and tell her friends about this creepy loser she just met.

Does she know anything about me? Do I have to talk to someone for them to think I'm a creepy loser? Can I just as easily be a loser by walking around, avoiding social interactions my whole life, sitting home alone, not getting invited out, jerking off because I can't get action? Isn't it the only way not to be a loser talking to them?
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Tell her friends what? She met some weird guy?

So FUCKITY DO WHAT?!?!

So they know she met someone weird... someone that could be any one of the billions of people on this planet! I can't remember a persons face unless I hang out with them for a really long time. Even the PUAs today I'm sure I'll forget what they look like in a day or two. People aren't going to remember you from a 1 minute interaction. They have better things to remember.

She may think it's weird. IT'S WEIRD. IT'S being the key word. IT'S meaning not you, the interaction. She can't think YOU'RE weird, she doesn't even know you. Even if some guys came up to me and did the craziest shit, I wouldn't be able to say "THOSE GUYS ARE FUCKED UP!". I'd say "THAT WAS FUCKED UP!".

I know I've heard "They aren't rejecting you, it's the opener" and would think "Well that's how I frame it, but they'll frame it the other way". Well now that I think of it, if I "rejected a cold approach" I would actually feel like I rejected the action, not the person. So it works both ways.

But if that's not enough then look at it this way.... WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK?!?! So what, she didn't like me, I guess I'll have to find one of the other millions of other beautiful women that do.

Alright, so those are my fears and why they're dumb. I don't think I've ever heard a legit fear.

Now that I know how fucked up and stupid my fears are I am going to learn to get rid of them completely. They don't stop me from pain, I'm in pain not getting what I want in life. They have no real purpose but to hold me back from what I want and what will make me happy.

So all together now before I go, let's all agree to shout in unison.

FUCK FEAR!!!!

Peace out! :)

Once again, back at the malls!

Recently I've been looking into products for Inner Game. I was suggested a few like "Paul McKenna - Supreme Self Confidence" and "Archer Sloan - SuperConfidence". I've been doing Hypnotica's "Collection of Confidence" and I'll almost finished. I just need to go out and do something crazy, like wear a dildo on my head (I wanted to go to a mall and offer free hugs to everyone but T-diddles thinks that's stupid...).

"Supreme Self-Confidence" was recommended by our Hypnotherapy friend. I tried it and the Trance part is crazy... I was so relaxed I felt out of my body.

"SuperConfidence" was one I found on a torrent site. I filtered out everything except the Hypnosis/ NLP torrents and ordered everything by times downloaded. It was the second most downloaded in that category. I looked at peoples comments and they were fairly positive. Searching on the internet about it though I couldn't find ANYTHING!

I decided the one downloaded over 1,000 times and guarantees confidence in 10 days was better then the 3 week program. So a few days ago that's what I started.

The product consists of 4 CDs. The first is just a bunch of really hard promises and goals to make. They are INSANE. Like no more lying, TV, masturbating, talking to people you don't have to... stuff like that.

The next CD is weird too. It's a relaxation type exercise where you see yourself as blue energy.

The 3rd and 4th CDs are missions to do over the 10 days. Today I completed mission #1! :D

Supposedly knowing the missions ruins the products so I won't say what it was. I will say however that I think it was a good exercise for getting comfortable with people and I can't wait to see what the next ones are.

Today me and T-Diddles went to the mall and did our thing. I had these missions I needed to do so I decided to go first. I opened 40 sets in total. After that we decided to take a break then headed back to meet-up with our Hypno-Friend. T-Diddles didn't want to do any approaches till our friend got there. We waited from 4:30 (when he was meeting us) till 5:00 (WHEN HE WAS 30 MINUTES LATE!). T-Diddles obviously wanted him to come so even though we'd waited forever T-Diddles still had me go to the next floor and watch the fountain as we waited some more. I wanted to see the guy too so it was cool.

Finally at 5:10 or so, JUST BEFORE WE LEAVE, I see the guy walk up to the fountain. We yelled down and met up with him.

Hypno-Man needed to eat so I walked around with the T trying to get him to open some sets. We were hungry too though so we eventually gave up and went for pizza.

When we were all done eating we were off to the races!

Don't get too excited... it wasn't that spectacular. T-Diddles opened a seated set, Hypno-Man another... DUHN-DUHN-DUHN, it was my turn. Those two obviously thought I was having mad AA cause they started telling me if I didn't go they'd push me to.

We went up to the first floor and I saw these two girls heading towards the escalator. I was walking towards them but didn't get there before they got on the escalator. They looked at me and I looked away thinking "Fuck, they saw me, I can't open now". Then I thought "That's bullshit! I can still open!" so I got on and went and opened them.

They laughed at my question and we got off the escalator and started talking. They were SO into me! OMG and the one was SO hot! AHHHH!!!!

I kept the conversation going and they were really excited to be talking to me. I teased them a bit. The hotter one was touching her lips and shit.

At this point I should have locked in, and just continued talking about whatever shit they told me, changed the subject based on something they said and gone for the number.

I COULD HAVE DONE IT EASY!

But I didn't lock in, I didn't grab the chance to move the conversation in another direction. Eventually I ran out of shit to say and ejected. Hypno-Man was telling me he was so close to coming and winging me. Damn!

I walked away from them though and lost the chance. When I looked across to the side where they were at I saw the hot one looking at me and checking me out...

FUCK!!!!!

STAY IN SET! GO FOR THE NUMBER! DON'T LET IT FLY BY!!!

After that the mall was fairly dull. T-Diddles and Hypno-Man opened a few more but left a little later.

But fuck them, I COULD HAVE NUMBER CLOSED A SUPER-HOT CHICK!!! SHE WAS CHECKING ME OUT!

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Boys and Girls, Men and Women, Puppies and Pussies..... DON'T FUCKING EJECT!

That word is no longer in my vocabulary. Fuck what people think of me, Fuck what they will think of me, Fuck what will happen.... I swear to the gods I don't believe in, I WILL NEVER EJECT AGAIN! If I want to eject I'll ask for the phone number and let them tell me to fuckoff.

Nawww they wouldn't do that.... AND FUCK THEM IF THEY DO!

Who gives a shit, it's all about you. Don't base your self-worth on how many people don't like you, how many people have rejected you.

Fuck that shit.

I'm basing my worth on how I feel about myself. I don't feel like shit if they reject me, but I will feel super amazing when they like me, when I go for the number and get it! :D

That's how you should be thinking Biznitches.

Peace Out!

Bahahaha, T-Diddles isn't going to like this post... but it's my blog so who cares! :D

How exciting after such an eventful day to be back in the field! :)

So yesterday (Let's all pretend this was posted the day before like it should have been) I told the amazing tale of getting shown up like crazy and going home feeling like I'd lost my "Superiority". After that I was interested to see what would happen today. Would I still just settle for less while T rocked the place? I wasn't feeling my best so I only assumed.

On the bright side, I GOT THE RECORDER TO WORK! :D

It's always motivational to know that someone is going to be listening, means you have to step up your game.

This morning T was feeling the AA again... me not really, but being up till 4am after a whole day of walking around, getting up at 10:30am, and walking 40 mins to a mall isn't the best way to prepare for sarging. Can I be blamed after the little amount of sleep I've gotten if I don't want to talk to people? I don't know, you tell me. Maybe it's AA or maybe I'm sleep deprived!

Anyway, since I felt good and felt I had catching up to do I decided to do 20 first! Once again it was the other chooses the sets, and you have to approach them. Now that my AA isn't THAT severe is this still really necessary? I didn't think about it then... but pushing is something you do when approaching freezes you... causing you to do nothing all day.

Whatever, it's what we did.

I'm happy for T and all, rocking the other day. However I must say, a combination of the confidence from that plus my praise may have made him a bit over-confident.

He really was pushing me, people on their cells, big burly guys (THAT HE HAD ASKED THE SAME QUESTION TO THE DAY BEFORE!), mothers and sons, groups with more guys then girls, a lady who was in the middle of talking to a sales person about buying something. And it was good so props to him for making me do it.

But some I just couldn't do.

A lady buying stuff... talking to a sales person? Ya, ya, ya. It's all possible but to pull it off and make it work you'd have to be really good. I'm all for pushing my comfort zone.... but some things I just won't do. I like walking ahead and finding my own sets. I find it way more easier then having someone walking beside me, saying "The lady in the purple shirt standing right behind us!" and running off expecting me to do it.

This guy though was really giving it to me. Saying I had no balls and that I was a pussy whenever I didn't do a set he told me to. If I told him it was unreasonable or anything he'd say "What are you talking about, I could have done that!"....whatever. :P

So that's how my 20 were. We each had 2 hours to do 20 and I did mine in 1h40m.

YAY! T's turn! I could choose all the hardest sets and show him how it felt. I was also a bit worried though because if he did do them I'd once again look stupid... don't worry, I didn't look stupid :) (but thanks for your concern! :p).

At the beginning he was doing pretty good. Not approaching by himself like yesterday, but if I told him to do something he did. He talked to a girl and her grandma :P. Not really hard but a bit weird. I think that was the first hard one I gave him that he did. The next was really good though!

We were walking and I was thinking "What can I give this guy to show him not everything is a piece of cake?". And then I saw it!

At the end of the "Hall" was this massive group of Business guys in their suits and in the middle of them, 2 good looking woman. So I told him "Alright... the big mob of business guys!". :P I was sure I had him.

But no! He does that! Turned and looked at me but I told him he had to...and he did.

I "Maybe he is the totally changed...better then me! :(".

Don't worry. It didn't last for long. As he did more it got harder and harder thought der. I told him to talk to this big burly guy and he didn't (even though I had to talk to a burly guy! One that he had talked to the day before!). There was a lady looking at ice cream flavors that I told him to approach but he didn't. Just looking! Not talking to the sales lady like the girl he told me to approach!

Their were probably a few more but I'm not positive like for those...

I'll leave them out so I can avoid getting told off.

Anyway, he never even did all his 20. I think he made it to 15....17? I'm pretty sure it was 15... but I'd rather be over then yelled at :P. The time it took was also over 2 hours.

I'm not writing this to be mean or show off that I'm better.... but after getting called a pussy all day and hearing how I'm not as good... NOT EVEN EQUAL TO HIM, I just had to point all this out.

I'm still proud of him for his great progress though!!! :D

Man.... he's gonna hate this... I'm gonna get phone calls about this shit :P.

Oh well.

Love ya T! :D (Tell me what you want to be called instead of that by the way... I'm liking T-Diddles if you want my opinion :P).

Peace

Well well well, what a day!

So far on this little adventure me and T have both had our little attitudes.

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I do some stuff but I also procrastinate. No matter what happens I stay positive though and try and keep the right attitudes. When we go out I do most of the approaches and struggle to get T to do stuff and stay positive.

T

Really dedicated to learning everything. I'd say probably more eager to go out then me. I'll go out by myself and with him but I'm not up for it everyday. He's up for it whenever he can but only if I'm there. He's a bit negative and says stuff like "I have no balls" and "I can't do it". His AA is more intense then mine and he doesn't have as much experience.

But forget all that. It's all in the past after today. :)

This was our first day doing it after our intense day with our Hypnotist friend. That guy had taught me some cool things I could do to get rid of AA. This included self-hypnosis, a grounding exercise and a product he recommended. On top of all that I started doing this exercise I had seen from "Ultimate Inner Game" where you walk this imaginary confidence line.

Every night since then I've walked the confidence line, done the grounding exercise, got into bed, listened to the product and then self-hypnotized myself and installed some things I wanted in my head (If you want more info on this stuff you can e-mail me). After 2 days of this I no longer feel the effects of AA. No more stomach pain, sweating, blushing... no physical affects what so ever. I am sad to say I still make excuses why not to approach, but the ones I do, no real nervousness or anything.

Today I was excited because we could use the new blue-tooth headphones to listen to each other. We both agreed we should do 20 sets the night before.

So we met this morning. First thing we wanted to do was get the head-phones working. Pull them out... fiddle around.... THEY DON'T WORK! I had also forgot the adapter so I couldn't fix them.

So that was a let down.

After that T wasn't keen on going first (neither was I but I decided it wasn't a big deal and I'd do it). We walked around and he'd point out sets. Sometimes they'd be right in-front of us, walking towards us, not people I was attracted to... so I wouldn't do it. I was tired too cause I hadn't eaten all day so that played in.

I had gotten to 5 and I realized how much farther I had till 20. I wanted to eat so we went to a Tim Hortons and got something.

When we got back I tried to get him to agree to make the number 10 but he would not budge on it at all. I explained that doing 20 is a lot harder then 10 and it would take too long. He told it wasn't true and that I still had to do 20. Finally I said "If you think it's so easy you can do 20, but I'm doing 10". He was happy to agree to that. I was at about 7 approaches so I quickly finished and it was his turn. I was thinking he'd start making excuses and eventually would agree with me that 20 was too hard.

HAHAHA! BOY WAS I WRONG!

He made less excuses then me. When he reached 10 instead of getting worse he just got better!

I was supposed to be pointing to sets, he obviously didn't care cause he started going up all by himself! I'd be talking and he'd say "Hold on..." and would approach some couple I would have never done. This guy was on fire! Talking to people I probably wouldn't have, going to people who were in situations I probably wouldn't have. I was impressed! His approaches were even lasting as long or longer then mine.

By the end I really regretted not having done 20, and not taking all the opportunities offered.

I can tell I'm going to have to really push what I'm comfortable with to keep up with him.

Tomorrow we go again and I'm doing my 20. I'm doing each one, staying in for as long as I can, set after set, rapid-fire.

In 2 days, we've upped it quite a bit.... I don't even want to think about what I'll be writing about at the end of the summer... :S

Oh Dangity the Game is ON! :D

Peace out!